I am often baffled at how deeply wrong human interactions
can go, how completely misunderstood intentions can become. I was in a
relationship for 14 years where silence reigned, ruled over our interactions,
built up until bursting. But then I tended to attribute more thought to my ex-husbands
intentions than he had put into them. I tended overthink things when he’s
really very simple, very little thought at all. Then I became involved with men
who think far too much and have been struggling just the same, perhaps in some
ways more so.
Thursday, August 23, 2012
Saturday, August 18, 2012
Feeling Off
I'm home today because I'm feeling a bit off. Yesterday I felt like my head was underwater, today I just felt wiped out. This is a good opportunity to sit down and think. Establish a little what I want to do.
Yesterday I met with Mark, my managers manager. We discussed a bit about what's working/not working and where I ranked myself.
I've been a bit insecure in this area... ranking myself. I get into work, I like my job... I understand what's expected of me... but in some ways I am in a bit of a rut. What do I need to do differently?
It feels like making an error at work is unacceptable. I just want to throw my hands up and stop when I'm continually brought to task about errors. I've been watching some episodes of "Undercover Boss" today though and see the positive attitude that a lot of people have. They keep going even though they have tough jobs. It makes me feel whiny to see them getting on with life and not whining... am I whining too much?
SG
Yesterday I met with Mark, my managers manager. We discussed a bit about what's working/not working and where I ranked myself.
I've been a bit insecure in this area... ranking myself. I get into work, I like my job... I understand what's expected of me... but in some ways I am in a bit of a rut. What do I need to do differently?
It feels like making an error at work is unacceptable. I just want to throw my hands up and stop when I'm continually brought to task about errors. I've been watching some episodes of "Undercover Boss" today though and see the positive attitude that a lot of people have. They keep going even though they have tough jobs. It makes me feel whiny to see them getting on with life and not whining... am I whining too much?
SG
Saturday, August 4, 2012
Dragging
Yesterday I felt like some kind of bug was coming on, flu, cold... overwork. I felt a bit off kilter anyway. I had an appointment to get my blood drawn first thing in the morning, it was hard to drag myself out of bed... not much motivation when you know there's a needle at the other end of the task.
Somehow I made it through work, dead as I felt, and somehow I thought it would be a good idea to go out to dinner with my friend Sorina and hit a free rooftop concert downtown.
It was fun, I'm not up to much today though.
SG
Somehow I made it through work, dead as I felt, and somehow I thought it would be a good idea to go out to dinner with my friend Sorina and hit a free rooftop concert downtown.
It was fun, I'm not up to much today though.
SG
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