I'm developing a mindset of inner self worth and it stays in tact even when buffeted. It is based on my understanding of who I am, what I like, what I want to learn and become... however sometimes buffeting can disturb my inner tranquility.
For instance, at work; I am sometimes at odds at work with my most passionate interests. I would rather read up on nutrition and health than book orders... and I've had moments where I haven't been able to concentrate from disinterest and/or illness. So I'm not keeping pace with some of the other people on my team and make mistakes at times.
Surprise, surprise when a coworker in another department made a list of mistakes I had made and sent it over to my managers, manager. He gave my manager the task of reviewing the list with me. I was not happy, I was tightly infuriated through the whole meeting. I tried to make positive suggestions about what I could do to improve and to not let my anger show but it slipped through... and I knew that it is advisable to take other peoples suggestions as a chance to improve... plus I knew that it was someone elses opinion of me and my work... they couldn't see all of the little ways that I had actually improved and that I recognized the mistakes and had already taken action to fix them. I was quite defensive at the moment...
My manager, his manager and presumably his manager are all focused on errors. I understand, errors can cause our customers frustration and anger. As well as our people. Errors can cause us to lose a lot of money.
The focus on errors though, the myopic focus, can lead to overlooking the great strengths of individuals. It can shut down discussion of solutions and lead to discontent with a job where the value of the employee is measured in the amount of errors made or not.
I came from a previous position where we were also looking for continuous improvement, and admittedly trying to avoid errors. But my manager sought our opinions, she sought to help us find ways to improve and train. It was a team effort of solution finding. I thrived off of it! Too bad I ever left.
So now I'm in somewhat stuck between a rock and a hard place. That's where I find myself and I'm making the best of things.
It doesn't mean that I'm giving up on my dreams. In fact, my thoughts on seeking for the best are these.
A compromise doesn't mean that the lesser good is the better good, or that you believe it to be so, it's just that the better good is just out of reach at the moment.
I would like to have a nice garden that I could pick my own fresh vegetables from. Right now I don't have the skills, space or the time, so I buy what I can from the store. I can read up on gardening, listen to lectures, observe, and participate when I can... eventually I will get to where I want to be.
The same applies to exercise. I am currently pressed for time. I get sick sometimes, and I intuitively know that I shouldn't push myself... so I walk when I can, do squats up the stairs, skip when no one is watching... sometimes do Yoga, and watch You-Tube videos, read books, and check out information on fitness programs. Eventually I will be able to put what I want to do into action.
This is the method that I've taken with getting healthy.
I read up about different things, try things out, do the best that I can... the point is that I always have had that goal in my mind. It's not going away and it has taken me this far. Eventually it will become less pressing to me because I will have mastered much of what I needed to know. But at the moment I do what I can, buy nutricuticals when I think something will help, discard it if it doesn't. Buy food and cook as much as possible... it's all part of the journey. Just because I ruined one dish (or crock of pickles), doesn't mean I should give up, it just means that I wipe the slate clean and try again.
~SG
On a similar note I ran across this article from listening to "The Latest in Paleo" podcast.
Dissolving Stress With The Higher Mind
For instance, at work; I am sometimes at odds at work with my most passionate interests. I would rather read up on nutrition and health than book orders... and I've had moments where I haven't been able to concentrate from disinterest and/or illness. So I'm not keeping pace with some of the other people on my team and make mistakes at times.
Surprise, surprise when a coworker in another department made a list of mistakes I had made and sent it over to my managers, manager. He gave my manager the task of reviewing the list with me. I was not happy, I was tightly infuriated through the whole meeting. I tried to make positive suggestions about what I could do to improve and to not let my anger show but it slipped through... and I knew that it is advisable to take other peoples suggestions as a chance to improve... plus I knew that it was someone elses opinion of me and my work... they couldn't see all of the little ways that I had actually improved and that I recognized the mistakes and had already taken action to fix them. I was quite defensive at the moment...
My manager, his manager and presumably his manager are all focused on errors. I understand, errors can cause our customers frustration and anger. As well as our people. Errors can cause us to lose a lot of money.
The focus on errors though, the myopic focus, can lead to overlooking the great strengths of individuals. It can shut down discussion of solutions and lead to discontent with a job where the value of the employee is measured in the amount of errors made or not.
I came from a previous position where we were also looking for continuous improvement, and admittedly trying to avoid errors. But my manager sought our opinions, she sought to help us find ways to improve and train. It was a team effort of solution finding. I thrived off of it! Too bad I ever left.
So now I'm in somewhat stuck between a rock and a hard place. That's where I find myself and I'm making the best of things.
It doesn't mean that I'm giving up on my dreams. In fact, my thoughts on seeking for the best are these.
A compromise doesn't mean that the lesser good is the better good, or that you believe it to be so, it's just that the better good is just out of reach at the moment.
I would like to have a nice garden that I could pick my own fresh vegetables from. Right now I don't have the skills, space or the time, so I buy what I can from the store. I can read up on gardening, listen to lectures, observe, and participate when I can... eventually I will get to where I want to be.
The same applies to exercise. I am currently pressed for time. I get sick sometimes, and I intuitively know that I shouldn't push myself... so I walk when I can, do squats up the stairs, skip when no one is watching... sometimes do Yoga, and watch You-Tube videos, read books, and check out information on fitness programs. Eventually I will be able to put what I want to do into action.
This is the method that I've taken with getting healthy.
I read up about different things, try things out, do the best that I can... the point is that I always have had that goal in my mind. It's not going away and it has taken me this far. Eventually it will become less pressing to me because I will have mastered much of what I needed to know. But at the moment I do what I can, buy nutricuticals when I think something will help, discard it if it doesn't. Buy food and cook as much as possible... it's all part of the journey. Just because I ruined one dish (or crock of pickles), doesn't mean I should give up, it just means that I wipe the slate clean and try again.
~SG
On a similar note I ran across this article from listening to "The Latest in Paleo" podcast.
Dissolving Stress With The Higher Mind
"You have a story of past challenges, that are in truth linked to a specific strength and purpose in your life. The ability of your Higher Mind is to connect the healing dots of cause and effect in your life and access a fulfilling and powerful force lying dormant within you. It is liberating and empowering to find the gifts hidden within your greatest challenges."
"Challenge is a dragon with a gift in its mouth. Tame the dragon and the gift is yours." ~ Noela Evans
