My Good Friend Kalisi. So young, So Brave...

This is my brave friend Kalisi, she's in Colorado auditioning for American Idol, GO KALISI!! (Though I'm not particularly partial to American Idol right now...)

Heartache for a friend...

I saw someone that I once knew in the store yesterday, I haven't talked to him for a long time. I was suprised to see the differences in him. I was happy to see him, he was more subdued. We talked a little bit. He told me he is a bad guy, this stated as a fact. If he chooses to be so, how can I argue with it. Once upon a time though, when I knew him before, he could have had so much more than what he is making of life, it breaks my heart to see it. What is ironic is that I admired him, I changed a lot of things in my life for the better because I admired him, I wish he knew that.

This is a song we sang at girls camp.

Friends

Time keeps passing by forever.
Moments for us all forever.

What a friend we have in time
Gives us children, makes us wise
Tells us what to take or leave behind.

And the gifts of growing old
Are the stories to be told
Of the feelings more precious than gold.

Friend(s) I will remember you
Think of you, and i'll pray for you.
And when another day is through
I'll still be friends with you. . .

(There's more but that's what is going through my head...)

Can it still hurt?

It's been over 3 years now since you died. At first I just ached and I cried, it felt good to cry, like a release. I couldn't believe it, that I would never see you again. I tried everything to forget, to feel better. I cooked and cleaned, I took long walks, and I cried. There has been a distance between me and everyone around me because they didn't grieve as I did. I thought that life was wrong, and I tried to imagine it was different, but it is not. Things are the way that they are, I cannot change them. For the past couple of weeks I thought that I was better, I have imagined that you are where you are supposed to be and that things are they way they are meant to be. But today, I woke up and you are still gone, I feel right now the ache. I want to cry but chide myself for being rediculous. My friend, I don't know if you will ever leave my heart. I guess that's the way things have to be, how can I forget you anyway? You were a part of me, my friend, and I will never forget.

~Strawberry Girl